Life: The Gift that keeps GIVING

Life: The Gift that keeps GIVING

It’s been so long since I’ve written a blog or even poured into my baby E.Y.E, I think I may have to reintroduce myself! Hello, my name is Heather Bee, your favorite jeweler and blogger. Can I start off first by saying I miss you all dearly! If you are a follower or a client, then you may have noticed I’ve been on a hiatus. Truth is life has been “lifing” and at times it felt as though the battle wasn’t mines. However, I’m here today to say the battle is mines and this blog is my testimony. If you are a new reader, let me start off by saying, my blogs are full of everything, but the focus is never just jewelry, the focus is life, the challenges, the obstacles, and the chivalrous side of this world. My son told me the other day “you read like a narrator” and I realized in that moment, he’s right, I’m not just Bee the jeweler I’m a storyteller. My blogs are considered my diary, my personal thoughts, my story, my love note to my followers. It is a reminder that in a world where everything seems like a façade, that there are still real humans and real emotions and kindness still exist, as well as BOMB a** jewelry!

I guess I should start by answering the first question “Where the hell have you BEEN girl?” If you follow me or is a friend or family member, some of you may know I lost my mother recently. This topic is very sensitive for me and honestly, I’m holding back tears not to cry (not working one bit Lol!), but if you ever lost someone especially a parent, you are very much so aware that grief comes in waves, like a thief in the night, and you can’t run from it, you must face it with all ten toes. Although tears are running down my face, it is important my transparency is shown. I’m a firm believer that there is always someone that needs motivation, inspiration and sometimes a push. If you are the person that needs that push, I’m here to tell you, it may hurt, but it becomes “bearable” with God! I’ve never experienced this amount of sadness until I lost my mother. It is a feeling I can’t describe in words. When you lose your mom, a part of you leaves as well. It changes you in so many ways but hear me clear you determine how it changes you. Does it change you for the better? Or for the worst? Although I miss my mom dearly, and there’s so many things I wish I would’ve did differently or said differently, the spiritual part of me selflessly understands her job was done. I know she was a good servant to our father in Heaven and she is now at home enjoying the riches of her work here on earth.

Her passing made me realize how short life is, one day you are here and the next day you are gone. It also made me realize that material things truly don’t matter. My mother wasn’t a rich woman and truly struggled most of her life, but when she passed away, she touched so many people. You know what that taught me? She was rich in the things that are truly important such as love, joy, respect and honor. My mom taught me without telling me how to be a giver, she taught me that you should never turn someone away, because you never know if it’s an angel in disguise. Remember I said, “you determine how death changes you”. Initially I was so sad, I mean laying on the couch in one spot, not even doing work (risking my job) sad. Jay (my son) and I are very close, and I noticed he would stay in his room, and this is very abnormal, because baby he is going to make his entrance in my room. I remember him telling me he really didn’t want to come out of his room because I was always so sad. Listen I’m always high energy, always happy even when things aren’t good. I made a promise when I moved into this house, I wanted it to be filled with love and joy, and I stand by that. I had to immediately get myself together. I strayed away from God, I didn’t resent him, but I strayed from him. I stopped praying to God, I stopped talking to him, I went away. One day I decided I can’t do this alone, so I did what I knew worked, and I went to him and told him “God, I can’t do it by myself”. I didn’t know what to pray about, I didn’t know what to say, I just told him “God I don’t know, help me”. Babyyy one thing about God he is never far, he is always there just waiting on us. When I tell you since the day I prayed to him, the warmth of his presence, the knowledge, the wisdom, the protection, the security he has given me allowed me to be here today writing this blog. To the person who is reading this, if you are struggling with grief, or whatever it is, you are struggling with, you don’t have to know what to ask God for, just go to him. He knows exactly what you need, if you believe in your heart he is there, he will definitely “spin that block” and turn all your losses to wins, and all your troubles to testimonies.

Life is the gift that keeps giving. If we are blessed to live long enough, life will teach and give us all sorts of things. Our lives are seasonal just like the four seasons, sometimes it will be good, sometimes it will be bad, and sometimes it may just “be”. We will face trials and tribulations, but no one is exempt from trials and tribulations. I’ve seen one of my friends come from a traumatic accident and now shining like the star I knew she would be. I remember telling her on her Facebook post, “don’t worry you will bounce back bigger and better”, and I’m glad to be here to witness my girl’s comeback. We can often be our own worst enemy, the person stopping us from opening the door or the person who keeps the car in neutral. Since my downtime, I’ve lost sales, I’ve lost exposure, I’ve probably lost followers. I would rather lose all those things and come back bigger and better than lose myself. One thing I know is if it’s meant to be it will be. E.Y.E is my baby, and at one point I was willing to let it go. I didn’t have the inspiration to sell, to post and honestly would get annoyed when orders were still rolling in, because I didn’t want to pack them. If you know “Bee” then you know that is not me. One thing about me, I’m going to sell some jewelry and pack an order no matter the hour or the day. I’m truly grateful for my girlies who checked on me and pushed me to not give up on my dream. I’m grateful to my son, who literally poured into me one night and said, “momma put more effort into your business”. Here I am with my scars and ready to battle this thing we call LIFE.

I don’t give advice, but I can give my testimony. My testimony is when life throws you lemons, get a martini glass and make a lemon drop. I love lemonade, but sometimes, you may need a little more energy to tackle those obstacles. Take a moment to look in the mirror and ask yourself “what does my spirit looks like”? Are you kind, giving, knowledgeable, selfish, foolish, loving, caring? Ask yourself how rich you are in things that don’t have a monetary value? If you have more money than things that don’t cost a thing, it’s time to start reevaluating. Remember when we leave this earth none of these things can come with us, only our spirit. Don’t let life kick your butt, all you need is faith as little as a mustard seed and good family and friends. Remember you learn about people on two occasions, at your best and at your worst. Each day is another opportunity to get it right, and sometimes it may not happen overnight, in a year or maybe in five years, but if it’s meant to be it will be. How do you impact the world? If you were to leave earth today, how would people remember you? Those are the questions we should consistently ask ourselves, and remember to love each other, respect each other and care for our neighbor. Learn to forgive those even when they aren’t sorry, and never be too prideful to admit your mistakes or solicit an apology. I don’t have many friends, but I can tell you I’ll take quality over quantity any day. Be wise with who you let in your life; remember you are the prize!

 Thank you for rocking with me, can we toast to more E.Y.E, more Bee, more love and more REALNESS!

Until next time!

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